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Dreaming #3

Dedicated to Gabe Marx
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I. Agnostalgia

They say you can never go home again
But you're youngbravestupidsmart enough to ask whether
Maybe you can, after all, go to your home-away-from-home again

From the onset, manicpanic sets in
You're yelling, laughing, sweating, running,
Lifting up unfamiliar children to the sun

You feel guilty, looking as you do unragged, unworn
Clean, fresh and well-slept
You bruise your face contorting it in a way you suddenly recognize seeing your who life
On the faces of those who Returned
The face conveys a wide gamut of emotion
Relief wrapped in regret, covered with joy, tempered with unfamiliarity
You don't know if you miss it or not
Agnostalgia creeps in

From your vantage point overlooking the valley
You start to notice a paradox
You can see the perimeter, can see with captioned labels the names of each component
You know its underlying mechanics are simple and few and well-documented
The roads are 1:72 scale
The people are much tinier than when you lived there
You now know it's nothing but a scale model
Of Middle School
Of Government
Of Society at large
Your vantage point insists that this place is so small

And yet, here you are swimming in it
Seeing it stretch out to the horizon with no end in sight
Inside it, a multiverse of swirling storylines
Infinitely interchangeable socio-pycho-sexual relationships
In every conceivable combination
You are nearly drowning in it and you go with the flow because it's just so easy
And you are separate from it forever and also a part of it always

You watch children at play
And your perspectives spirals outward beyond your control
And like a painting of a painting of a painter painting a landscape
You realize that one of them
Doesn't just remind you of you
He is you
And you remember that you started out as someone taller than you
And you suppose he must have started out as someone taller than him
And that it must stretch further back with each previous generation remaining forever taller
In the minds of its descendents
Which would necessarily dictate an uppermost echelon of progenitors of your youness
Who would have to be as big as galaxies
And yet, they are trapped inside this bubble in the same way a part of you will always be trapped there

And you look at the outside
And you know like the back of your heart what's inside and you think:
How can this tiny bubble hold?

II. Dislocation

When you return from any trip, but most notably a longer stay,
And you come back Home
You get that feeling that everything was moved
Just a little bit
And things are the wrong color or the wrong relative size
The air smells funny

All the while, of course, everything feels exactly the same

You have obviously always known this fact from the first time you strangely found
Your toys exactly how you left them in media res
But somehow ever so slightly askew
Like they had all gotten up and moved around while you were gone
And were just really good at remembering where you left them

The thing is, the new thing is, the strange things is
You always pegged the Ennui of the Return
As a natural by-product of leaving a superior location to return to your creature comforts

Sure you were happy to have YOUR stuff back (you love your stuff)
It's just that things were bettersimplerfasterslower way back
Before
In Grassisgreenerville

What's new what's strange is to discover
This feeling of Dislocation accompanies any return
No matter how much you need to get home
It won't be the home in your head
And getting back won't make it that place
Because you can't go Home again

III. Appreciation Buzz

Take that buzz
The Appreciation Buzz that comes to you unbidden
While you open your heart's ears or point it's one piercing eye
At something you just can't help but love unabashedly
The Appreciation Buzz does not ignore flaws
It celebrates them or simply lets them be
Telling you with raised arm hair or bodily tingling
That this thing before you is Good

You take that buzz and you turn it on yourself
And you think about the surprisingly unscientific storage capacity of small bubbles
And you think about you
And how maybe you hold galaxies too
And how maybe we made God and the Stars made us
And how you are special just like everyone else
Because everyone else is made from the same stuff you are

You start to wonder if maybe since we all, everything in creation,
Come from the same thing, we could all in the end happily return to it
But you can't go home again

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Dedicated to Gabe Marx
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 I. Agnostalgia

They say you can never go home again
 But you're youngbravestupidsmart enough to ask whether
 Maybe you can, after all, go to your home-away-from-home again

From the onset, manicpanic sets in
 You're yelling, laughing, sweating, running,
 Lifting up unfamiliar children to the sun

You feel guilty, looking as you do unragged, unworn
 Clean, fresh and well-slept
 You bruise your face contorting it in a way you suddenly recognize seeing your who life
 On the faces of those who Returned
 The face conveys a wide gamut of emotion
 Relief wrapped in regret, covered with joy, tempered with unfamiliarity
 You don't know if you miss it or not
 Agnostalgia creeps in

From your vantage point overlooking the valley
 You start to notice a paradox
 You can see the perimeter, can see with captioned labels the names of each component
 You know its underlying mechanics are simple and few and well-documented
 The roads are 1:72 scale
 The people are much tinier than when you lived there
 You now know it's nothing but a scale model
 Of Middle School
 Of Government
 Of Society at large
 Your vantage point insists that this place is so small

And yet, here you are swimming in it
 Seeing it stretch out to the horizon with no end in sight
 Inside it, a multiverse of swirling storylines
 Infinitely interchangeable socio-pycho-sexual relationships
 In every conceivable combination
 You are nearly drowning in it and you go with the flow because it's just so easy
 And you are separate from it forever and also a part of it always

You watch children at play
 And your perspectives spirals outward beyond your control
 And like a painting of a painting of a painter painting a landscape
 You realize that one of them
 Doesn't just remind you of you
 He is you
 And you remember that you started out as someone taller than you
 And you suppose he must have started out as someone taller than him
 And that it must stretch further back with each previous generation remaining forever taller
 In the minds of its descendents
 Which would necessarily dictate an uppermost echelon of progenitors of your youness
 Who would have to be as big as galaxies
 And yet, they are trapped inside this bubble in the same way a part of you will always be trapped there

And you look at the outside
 And you know like the back of your heart what's inside and you think:
 How can this tiny bubble hold?

II. Dislocation

When you return from any trip, but most notably a longer stay,
 And you come back Home
 You get that feeling that everything was moved
 Just a little bit
 And things are the wrong color or the wrong relative size
 The air smells funny

All the while, of course, everything feels exactly the same

You have obviously always known this fact from the first time you strangely found
 Your toys exactly how you left them in media res
 But somehow ever so slightly askew
 Like they had all gotten up and moved around while you were gone
 And were just really good at remembering where you left them

The thing is, the new thing is, the strange things is
 You always pegged the Ennui of the Return
 As a natural by-product of leaving a superior location to return to your creature comforts

Sure you were happy to have YOUR stuff back (you love your stuff)
 It's just that things were bettersimplerfasterslower way back
 Before
 In Grassisgreenerville

What's new what's strange is to discover
 This feeling of Dislocation accompanies any return
 No matter how much you need to get home
 It won't be the home in your head
 And getting back won't make it that place
 Because you can't go Home again

III. Appreciation Buzz

Take that buzz
 The Appreciation Buzz that comes to you unbidden
 While you open your heart's ears or point it's one piercing eye
 At something you just can't help but love unabashedly
 The Appreciation Buzz does not ignore flaws
 It celebrates them or simply lets them be
 Telling you with raised arm hair or bodily tingling
 That this thing before you is Good

You take that buzz and you turn it on yourself
 And you think about the surprisingly unscientific storage capacity of small bubbles
 And you think about you
 And how maybe you hold galaxies too
 And how maybe we made God and the Stars made us
 And how you are special just like everyone else
 Because everyone else is made from the same stuff you are

You start to wonder if maybe since we all, everything in creation,
 Come from the same thing, we could all in the end happily return to it
 But you can't go home again